Hey everyone! I was on a little vacation. I did not go anywhere. I caught up on sleep and just lounge around. It felt good to not have to deal with work. I stayed away from the internet until now. Just want to relax and unwind. I hope everyone is doing fine. I am going to catch up on all the entries.

Just something I have thinking. Is doing the right thing always the best thing for me? I wonder sometimes when I make the right choice if it was the best thing for me. Do I need to be selfish at times? I have self doubt. Always second guessing the choices I make. I try to do the right thing. I believe in being nice and doing random acts of kindness to my friends. I like doing things that is unexpected. Maybe I wish I knew if someone was thinking of me. Makes me feel wanted. It's the loneliness talking. Just feeling a little blue.

I am excited! I am a member of Linkin Park fan club. Member got to buy tickets a few days before everyone else. I got mine. It is in the pit area right in front of the stage. Along with LP, supposedly My Chemical Romance (also a big fan of theirs), Taking Back Sunday, Placebo, and one other band will be joining them. For 76 bucks, I am glad there will be five bands at the concert. Can't wait to see them. I got the new album. It is different from their other stuff but it is still good. Don't laugh but I am a fan of Kelly Clarkson too. I got a ticket to see her too. I just like her music. Don't know why. I am glad to have something to look forward to.

I went to the Gwen Stefani concert. It was amazing. Lady Sovereign open was the first act. Then Akon was next. They were pretty cool. But Gwen rocked. It was really cool. I was in the back but I was in the middle of the arena and I had a good view of everything. Gwen decided to set up a song close to the back so everyone had a chance to see her. It was really cool. I got a concert shirt of Gwen and Akon. Next up for me is seeing Linkin Park. A theater is airing a performance of LP on the big screen. I am looking forward to seeing them doing some new material. All in all a good time for me in music.

Just a little post. I am very sad about the tragic event at Virginia Tech. The killer was mad at the world especially at rich people I think. I don't know what else to say. Very tragic....

I have not been on here in awhile. I went on a raod trip to South Carolina this past week. It was very cold. Went down to 30 degrees. The reason I was up there was to visit some friends who live in Charleston. Very beautiful. Lots of old southern charm and history. I didn't get to take any pics. I ate a lot and drank a lot. I am trying to get updates here and read all the entries I have missed. I hope everyone had a great Easter weekend.

Letting go is a hard thing for me to do. Some friends of mine reminded me of all the nice things I have done but I don't remember a lot of it. I remember all the mistakes I have made. All my life my dad reminded me how I failed and how I messed up. He will never let me forget all the mistakes I done and reminded me everyday about them. I now have a habit of keeping an inventory of every failure I committed, all the people I have let down, all the people I was mean to and all the people I hurt. I know I did some things I am not proud of. I was young and immature. I have try to learn and not commit them again but at the same time I can't let it go. I have to carry the weight of burden and guilt. I feel I must atone for these mistakes. I can't have happiness unless I have made up for my wrong choices. I can't let go...I just can't...

A boring day so far. It is starting to get hot here. I miss the cool weather. I have not been getting a lot of sleep. I don't what is the matter with me. I go through some days where I can't sleep for few days and then all of sudden I will be so exhausted I just pass out and wake up the next day. It just sucks I am not getting any sleep.

Man, I am so tired. This past weekend I went to Megacon. It was really fun. I bought a few things. I got this cool shirt. It has this character called Owley. Very cool. I got the first issue of x-23. Some people had some cool customes. It looked like they put in some work into it. All in all I had a great time.

Man, it is cold right now. I am at work. I wish I was in my nice warm bed. UUGGHH!! Nothing much to report. I got a new computer. It is an i-mac. I like apple computers. I really can't afford it but I needed to get a new one. On a sad note, my mom's friend, Mary, lost her mom a couple of days ago. Her mom had Alzheimers disease. She was in the later stages. I felt so sad for her. I called her and didn't know what to say. It felt so awkward.